Friday, January 15, 2010

Backstage with a Centerstage God.

I remember when I was doing theater in college and a few summers ago, that there were moment just before you walk on stage, when I was backstage and I would just have to take a breath and pray that the lines I knew would come out right. I was hardly ever nervous on stage but there is something about doing a devotional in front of women that I know that are close to my age. 
I did a cake demonstration today at out MOM's group and a short devotional. My stomach was in knots. Just before it started I slipped into the other room and just took a breath, tried to pretend I was just back stage, and prayed. I prayed that God would calm my nerves and let me say whatever he wanted me to say.
Sometimes things don't go exactly as I planned. I looked at the clock and it was time for me to be done and I hadn't even gotten to the devotional yet. I looked out at the faces sitting before me. Several were just blank like they wouldn't even care if I took a nose dive into the cake and then crashed through the stage. But I was determined that God had given me an analogy and I wanted to get it out. 
I'm not exactly sure what I said or if it came out the right way. I had at least three pages of notes that I didn't even use (and Jax had spilled coffee on this morning.) But somehow a condensed version came out. After it was over I felt like going and crying in the bathroom. But I didn't, I just took a deep breath and told God, "I hope that I said what you wanted."  
We did a cute craft and ate a fun lunch (Kyle would call it chick food) and Crissy Clayton had some really good parenting tips (which I'm thinking I need to put on the fridge!) 

The cake didn't go as planned, the devo didn't go as planned. But I will give God the glory for it anyway, because "In he heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his course." Prvb 16:9


Kristy said...

I know your devo spoke to several, including myself. You did a better job speaking in front of all the girls than me! I was obviously pretty nervous too!

Tracy J said...

I wish I could've been there for the cake demo and devo (dumb job) :)And I know Godd speaks through you on your blog, so I'm sure He did through your devo there as well.

Melissa said...

You sell yourself WAY too short! You are a busy mom with a multitude of talents and you shared some of them today in a fun and simple way! I'm always trying to add to my "flavor" to suit others and forget that, like cake, this is who I am...take it or leave it! Thanks for today! You did a great job!